What We Really Going To Lose (Or Already Lost).

Hello readers.

This season we will lose a lot of trophies. There will be no Cup De Rey or Champions League trophie. We already lost them. And probably there will be no La Liga cup.
But that’s not the real loss of this season. All those trophies are just things. You can win or lose them every year. It’s nice to win, but if you never lose winning will be normal and you don’t enjoy it not enough. I love winning, but it’s okay that we don’t get the trophies this year. The only thing that bothers me about it is how everone acts about it. Sure, we can talk about it. Why is Messi not as good as he used to be? He’s still great, but he was better last season. And where is the motivation? If you say the players weren’t fighting, you have watched different matches than I have.
But that’s all not that important. The important thing is, what we are really going to lose or have already lost.

The players. The humans. The people who make us all sticking together under the sign of the club.

I am going to miss…

Carles Puyol. 

He always is one of the most important players, because he is the leader. The one who fights until the very end. He is a true captain and I am really sad that he’s going to end his career, but I understand it. He’s 36, that’s an age there football players end their careers (expect goalkeepers). He played 19 years for Barcelona and I’m glad he stayed there until the end of his career. I love him even more for being at one club for almost all his life. I’ll support him with his future plans, whatever their about. I’m sure he’ll return to the club, maybe as a coach… and I can’t wait for him to be back.
Until then, thank you very much, Don Puyol. You’ll always have a special place in my heart and be my captain in some way. I don’t know how it’ll be without you there… Since I’m a culé, you’ve been there and it’s hard to imagine the club without you, so don’t stay away for too long, por favor.

Victor Valdés.
The goalkeeper plays for the club since 2002. 12 years. That’s a long time and I can’t imagine someone else is standing between our goalpost… I mean, I’m used to see Pinto now and then, but everytime I do, I know Valdés will be back soon. It seems like he wants to leave and I want him to do the things he wants… but I also hope that he stays at the club, because he’s a great goalkeeper and person. I adore his way of keeping the ball outside the goal and I’m not afraid when I know he’s there to save us. So I keep hoping until I see him play for another team.

José Pinto.
There’s the second goalkeeper, I just talked about. I know that sounds weird, because he got a lot of hate lately… but I think this guy is great keeper as well. Sure he’s not as good as Valdés is, but who really is? He always was a good keeper when we needed him and sometimes he saved us, too. I’m going to miss him. Thank you, Pinto.

And now…

Tito Vilanova.
The man on the bench, who just died. He was our coach for only one season, but he won la liga and broke Real Madrid’s record of 100 points. But before that season he was on Pep’s side. They made all this golden ara together. He was the silent hero, who worked hard in the background. He taught ous to fight, to keep fighting, even if it gets worse, and to never give up. He was there for everyone, who needed his help. He earned a lot of respect, even from the Madridistas. He worked hard for the club and his life. He fought against cancer until his last day, but some fights can’t be won and sadly that was one of them. In a way Barça is like a huge family and now it really feels like one of our family members passed away. I am sad, I cried and I will remember him as a strong person with a huge heart for others.
Thank you, Tito. For being a hero. For being our coach. For being our player. For being Pep’s friend. For being a dad to your kids. For being a husband to your wife. For being a child to your parents. For being a Culé. For being there for others. For being there for Cesc when he was a child. For being a fighter.
For just you being you.

PSE Tito


I just like to say thank you to everyone I talked to about our lose and who understands what I talked about.

Also a huge thank you to all my friends, who stick around. I know I’m weird and it’s not always easy, but you stay my friends. So thank you.

In time of huge loses you see that’s important.




We Used To Be Friends.

Hello my friends,

I’m such bad blogger lately. But I still have hope to get better…

Today I’m full of power and joy. I went to the cinema with my best friend. We watched the Veronica Mars Movie, which made me freak out… I don’t know if you know the series, but it was my favourite (before Sherlock existed) and it ended “not so great”. A lot of fans hated it and begged for the movie… after years WB and the makers finally agreed to make a movie, but the fans had to finance the whole thing. So Rob Thomas, the maker, started a kickstarter project and the fans spend over 5 million USD…. which are 3 million more than they had asked for. I still can’t believe all this really happend and I’m so proud to be a part of this fandom! Well, yeah… what was I about to say? I guess, I only wanted to let you know how much I love Veronica Mars and that I’m pretty happy thanks to her and the great, great movie!

Okay, back to the things I wanted to write about two weeks ago.

Fall Out Boy was insane, because they reminded me of my whole teenager time and I’ve lots of memories about every song. It just was like time traveling and being as emotinal as I am right now. We stand in front of Pete Wentz, who had such an huge impacted on who I am now… I am grateful to have seen my those people who just helped me growing up.
They are also grown as a live act since I saw them in 2007. They really got better and I’m very happy about that and I can’t wait to see them again one day.


I also wanted to tell you why I’m going to stay here longer.
Well, there are a couple of reasons.

  1. I earn more money next year… that sounds so bad to write, but it’s easier to move with a little bit money in the back of you pocket.
  2. I’ll get some working experience, which will help me finding a new job later.
  3. I can help my mom, if she’ll really move houses.
  4. I don’t have to leave my pets behind (that’s, to be honest, one of the main reasons… I can’t imagine a life without them).
  5. I still can travel and maybe I’ll finally make it to Barcelona, which would be amazing.

Those were my main reasons… so I’m excited about whatever will happen in the next few months.

See you soon,

x Frankie

PS: Barça just won against Real Madrid, so I’m even more happy than at the beginning of this blog post. (I didn’t write during the match… maybe the text isn’t that great… I just wrote before the match, during the half-time and after the match… )
I hope, you had a great day as well. I wish you a great week.

I made a decision! | Life Update

Hello there.

After a few of months of uncertainty, I finally made a decision! I really felt bad those months and I was thinking too much… but I made a compromise, which should work very well. At least I hope so.

You guys know that I want to go to a foreign counrty to live there at least for one year… and I thought I’d do this next summer. But my boss asked me, if I’d like to stay there for another year, so I’d make some working experience and earn some money before I leave… well and after that question I thought about it a bloody lot! I thought I wouldn’t leave this place, if I’d say yes to stay here for another year….

But on the other hand I’ll still be young next year. And why shouldn’t I go next year? And it’d great to save some money before I leave…

So, after the last months being unhappy with myself, I’m going to be fine now.

I made the decision to stay here. With my family, pets & friends. At my job.
And then I’ll go to away.

Thank you very much for sticking around.

I’ll tell you more about my decision in the next post, but first of all I just wanted to tell you.
I’d also love to share my thoughts about my very first concert and the last one I’ve been to. Yes, those were my tickets…


See you sooner now,

x Frankie

feelings. | Life Update

Dear reader,

it took me two weeks to write here about this, but today is the day.

I am kinda exhausted. I feel pretty tired all the time and I needed my last sundays for myself.
All this is because I have to make some very serious decisions and I’m fucking bad in making those.
There’s also a lot of stress, because there are a few things I’ve to do for my school.
And of course my job is keeping me busy all mornings and noons long.

I just could need a rest, but there’s no time for rests.
And I start to doubt.

Doubt in what I want from life.
What I want from my job.
What I want from my freetime.
What stuff I really enjoy and what I just thought would be fun, but in the end it isn’t at all.

The thing is, I don’t feel like leaving Germany this summer.
Not because I couldn’t, but because it doesn’t feel right now.
But also my job doesn’t feel right and I have no clue how to solve this problem.
Changing the job sounds so easy, but first I need to find out what the right job is!

Damn, I’m so confused…. and then I’ve got this lovely blog…. which I loved to write, but lately I’ve been shitty at it >.< And I am sorry for that.
But there’s so much going on in my real life and my brain never gets a rest to relax and write something nice.
So I post all my thoughts and hope you don’t mind to read something boring here.
I am not sure how long it takes before I’ll be back to the normal posts, but I don’t wanna promise anything, because there’s a huge homework coming and I don’t know if I’ll write while doing them. I’m sorry. Really.



The greatest peace I’ve ever known.

Dear readers.

Last Friday I was at Patrick Wolf’s Concert. It was the best time of the year.

I love Patrick Wolf.

Because he writes perfect lyrics. If I’ll ever get a tattoo, it’d be a part of the song Lycanthropy. But there are so many more great lyrics. Lately I cried to House, because I’ve to move and I loved my home… and it just makes me sad.
Well, but on the otherside his songs make me happy. They show me that I am not alone. The lyrics help me to explain my own feelings and give me courage to be the person I want to be. And I’m thankful for that.

“Let no foot, mark your ground Let no hand, hold you down.”
– Patrick Wolf –

Because of his beautiful voice. This voice reminds me of something better… that there’s still something great to come. His whole music has a very unique – in a positive way – sound. When people ask me what kind of music he makes, I never know what to say. He’s music is just different from all the other artists I’ve ever heard.

Because he has the best wolfpack in the world. When I go to a concert of this gorgeous man I feel like I am going to a huge meeting with a lot of friends. It’s always a great atmosphere and everyone is very kind.
They also make amazing projects like the Happy Birthday video for Patrick’s 30th birthday. Or they send christmas cards to each other.

Because his personality is kind, honest and great. He makes me laugh about jokes. On stage he dances like he’s home alone. He enjoys every second while he’s performing. I love that. And then there’s his style – colourful, glittering. It’s awesome how he wears the things he likes and he always seems self-conscious with his style.

Because at his concerts I can be myself, happy and forget the whole world for a while.
And then there’s his violinist, Victoria Sutherland. She plays at his concerts (and records) since years. The wolfpack loves her almost as much as Patrick himself. She’s lovely.

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There are many more reasons to love him. I’d love reasons why you love him. Or who do you love and why?



PS: Happy 3rd Advent.

Everything Comes To An End.

Hello readers.

Happy second Advent ♥

I’ve been sick this week and I still feel a little bit exhausted.
But it get’s better, finally.
Now this weekend feels unbelieveable short and I hear the clocks are ticking.
Everything is coming to an end.
This sickness. This weekend. And finally this year.

I’ve been sick for a couple of days.
I worked as long as possible, but on Wednesday I was too exhausted to go to work.
I went to an doctor, who gave me some pills and he told me I’ve to stay at home for the rest of the week.
So I stayed at home. I slept a lot.
I finished reading Me Before You by Jojo Moyes. Laugh a little about it and cried at the end.
Than I decided that I need more books by this brilliant author and I revise my christmas wish list.
I also watched a few movies, Heartbeats, Laurence Anyways and Love and other Drugs.
And that’s just it. That’s all I’ve done in the days since Wednesday.

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So this weekend seemed very short.
I didn’t do much. I was at home and I went for a few little walks with my dogs.
The weather was rainy and I’m glad I hadn’t to go for huge walks.

Well, and this year was… changing!
I left school. Maybe for forever.
I started working in a job, I don’t enjoy half as much as I wish I’d.
I made plans for the upcoming year.
I was on a two weeks holiday in Sweden. (You can read here about it)
I saw my favourite german band – Die Toten Hosen.
I build up friendships. I let friendships faid away.
I enjoyed life.
I hated life more than ever.
That’s what my 2013 was about.

Well, I want to be a happy person!
Right now I’m unfortunately not that person, because I struggle with a few things.
But I’ll change those things in 2014.
In the end life is short and I don’t want to waste it.
I want to enjoy life as much as possible.
That sounds cheesy or selfish, but when you think about it, I guess, you’ll enjoy your life as much as possible, too.
Life is too short to regret something.
So be brave and do the things you enjoy and take risk to get where you want to be.
I’m working on being brave. And I’ll start to take more risks in the future.
Everything needs time, but I don’t want to waste too much of it, anymore.

What is important to your life? What would you like to do? What risks would you take for your dreams?

xx Frankie

I’m Looking Forward To See You.

Hello lovely readers.

Happy first Advent to you. I lighted up the first candle of Advent and opend the first door of my Advent Calendar.
Christmas will be sooon! And 2014 will be soon, too.

I have a lof of great things coming up.

In 12 days I’m going to see Patrick Wolf !
I count the days since months and it’s so great to see that it’s finally less than two weeks.
I really love Mr. Wolf since the first time my ears heard his great music, which always helps me through life.
His lyrics are brilliant.
But don’t ask me about the genre. I can’t describe his music at all. Just listen to a few of his songs, please.
And if you have the chance to see him live, go! He’s a great, great, great live performer.
Sooo, I’m looking forward to see him on stage for the third time 🙂

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I am also looking forward to visit my favourite city. London.
26 days until my best friend, Theresa, and I will be in England for 5 days.
Theresa has never been in London and wants to see all the classic sightseeing things.
And I want to see Les Misérables at the West End.
We still make plans what we’re going to do, so if you know what we have to do, let me know.
Of course I’ll tell you everything about this journey in January.

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I’ve already a few plans for 2014.
And I’m pretty sure it will be great!
I’m going to make a new post about the new year on my holidays.

I’d like to know what are you looking forward to?

x Frankie